i felt so drained today. i'm not in good mood. i didnt have a good night sleep ystd though Ms Red pardoned me from all the pains. i cried till i fell asleep. lynn was late again. i waited for like half an hour. my frens said i looked pale today(i tot my eyes looked puffy only). i broke down again when lynn hugged me.

i didnt bought my usual breakfast. my gerls were really concern bout me. though i'm not in the mood, i can still make them laugh. went for DTG. he msged again. i told him off. we end up arguing again. and when i opened my FS, norman send me a msg. tsk! why must all of YOU PEOPLE appear back in my life after disappearing for soo long?? i dono why but i shouted and cried and was laughing at the same time. i can go bonkers trust me.

i talked crap all the way. headed to tat not-so-glamour toilet n smoked. yes. i smoked. i bought 2 boxes of ciggies. dont ask me why. shut up ok? took a stupid video of Sue. and of cos, i wont post it w/o her permission. xD went back to SR4. by tat time, its oredi our break. bt i have no appetite so we stayed in SR4. talked wif wani. she gave me advise. jyea. i know i shudnt be too stubbornhead. bt... i'm just disappointed. and i'm soo not gg to msg him first. aftr sum time, i decided to stuff myself wif some food. yes. finally i'm talking abt eating. so went to canteen. bought mee soto. and eat. aftr finishing up one bowl. i felt satisfied. bt not for long. a few minutes aftr tat, i rushed to the toilet. and EVERYTHING came out. i didnt let everything out cos it taste disguisting.

me: lynn.. aku tahan muntah ah..

lynn: asl..? kluar kn smuer je..

me: it taste disguisting...

lynn: ya allah! kater muntah.. kau bilang aku, biler maser muntah taste soo nice? kalo muntah raser sdp, smuer org pon nk muntah..

me: bt the taste of TEH PENG PLUS MEE SOTO is soo off ok?

n we laughed. and i c'nue vomitting. tsk! bt i paused half way. cos lynn nid to shit. haha. so left the toilet. tot mike left the canteen bt eventually, NO. he's still there. and finally, he msged me. hah!

wen to that not-so-glamour toilet again. ah yeww n is were inside there too. we talked2. n i c'nue vomitting. aftr doing our b'ness, wen back to class. i swear i feel soo weak tat i kept on shivering. i dono wad i did. and tat bastard msg me again! pretending to send the msg wrongly. konon nye meant for his GF. stupid! ystd he was telling me hw much he regretted all that n... aaahh! forget it. i'm not jealous. i dont give a damn. i would b glad to know if u gt a gf. tsk!

before the lesson ended, watched ricky martin's video. the babes were hot. we were dancing in SR4. despite feeling sick. i followed some of the steps. xD met mike outside the class. gave him a few sticks. cos i noe i wont b finishing it. didnt talked much. he left. i'm still in daze. they said, i look terribly sick. waited for lynn. make fun of this stucked up teacher. ppfft!

went home w/o lynn. her dad picked her up. otw to interchange, i told mike wad i felt bout ystd's incident. he has nothing else to say. whatever. my gerls tried to cheer me up. bt i'm just too tired. physically, emotionally and mentally. sooner or later, i'll turn bonkers. seriously. my mind was soo sort. i dont feel like gg to skewl tomorrow. i'm soo in need of theraphy. gonna skip my dikir this sat just for that spa treatment at Mary Chia. yes. i'm having a spa treatment dere.

and to that ex of mine:

please stay away from me. i'm begging you. dont msg me anymore. i dont even want to b your friend. i've tried to give u many chances. but aftr all what u said to me, aftr accussing me, aftr threatening me, u expect me to forgive u? u've demoralised me. i took alot of courage to get over it. and start to build my own happiness. bt wen u came, u stashed everything away. you turned my life upside down within one night. causing me to b back lyk in the past, where i cant forgive ppl easily, where i treat guys like dogs, when i kept on blaming others for these, when i'm totally harsh & selfish. where i'm totally not myself! so for the laast time, please stay away from me. by all means if you want to kill yourself. better still. i just dont want to see or hear anything from you ever again. thank you.

on a lighter note, there's a hot male teacher in my school. Sue thinks his butt is hotstuff. xD

thanks Lynn for that Boho skirt. i cant wait to wear it. we'll b having Sushimatos Sentosa Outing next friday(cos i have the strong feelings the 4As would not make it. Especially that someone.)

and, someone called me names just because i reject his invitation of going out with him. ppffft! childish.

i'm going off. till here then.

~ Please return back my smile cause i miss it soo much.